Love, May
Letters, random thoughts, reviews
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still standing, still tired
I first noticed this tiredness three years ago, after my mother’s first stroke. At the time, I thought I was simply overwhelmed, lamoyon, reacting to a crisis the way anyone would. I told myself it would pass once things stabilized. They never did. Instead, everything began to pile up, quietly at first, then all at once. What makes this tiredness different from ordinary exhaustion is that it comes from family, and family does not pause. My mother became less mobile. Then she was diagnosed with carcinoma and went through two surgeries. My brother was diagnosed with chronic kidney disease. Then my father. Then my boyfriend, who also had chronic kidney…
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When a Book Comes at the Right Time
There are moments when you pick up a book, and somehow, it feels like it was waiting for you. Not in a dramatic way but patiently sitting on your shelf or in your recommendations list, until you were finally in the right place or time to understand it. I think that’s one of the most comforting things about reading. And maybe that’s also why we don’t mind collecting TBRs, because books don’t rush you. They wait for the version (or era, if that’s your preferred term lol) of you that needs them most. I’ve had that experience a few times. Just this year, there was a new book I just…
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How vlogging about books and reading helped me read more
I’ve always loved the idea of reading. When I was a kid, I was always looking forward to the balikbayan boxes my godparents’ family was sending us. And then I learned about Wattpad. And then I entered university and found a very nice and accessible haven called the library. Buying books? Well, that’s a different story. When I started working, I finally had the budget for my own copies of books, some pennies to spend to go to a library in Manila as we didn’t have local libraries, I got the money to magically get my own Kindle and ooooh the easy access to mooooore ebooks made me even mroe inspired to…
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They say quitting is the easiest way. NOPE.
Hellloooooooo. It’s been what, maybe a year? LOL since I visited this blog and hey, I’m finally back because why else do we post long, personal drama on the internet? I’m here because this is ironically the most comfortable space I can vent out to. I’d want to go out, hike some mountains and stand at the peak and shout I’M TIIIIIIRED then spend the rest of the day appreciating the view and fresh air and maybe a warm cup of coffee. And then my brain reminds me that I’m not any more physically able (at least for now, because duh, I’m gonna work out somewhen) and that I should…
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Book Haul: 13 new books on my shelf that I won’t read anyways (or at least not yet)
I bought books and I'm not reading them. Not yet. I mean who does? We buy books to throw them somewhere at home. You're fortunate if you have a beautiful shelf, but in my case, I have this empty drawer and so I made them full. Or at least almost. I'm not reading these books because I have a long list of TBR before the year ends and to be honest I don't know if I can finish actually them in two months. So maybe expect more reading vlogs featuring 2021 book trends on the first quarter of 2022. But that's okay. Books are forever.











