On keeping secrets

Some may say I am oversharing life stuff on Facebook, Instagram, and even here on the blog by posting lots of photos, sharing private stories, etc. I think so, too. Sometimes, due to my anger, happiness, pain, excitement, I tend to grab my phone the second I feel it and post anything that’s in my mind. But newsflash: if you think you already know my life, then think again.

There still are things I filter (not just selfies) before I publish them. Nope, they’re not fake, I just put a little “tint” on it to cover my private life. And yes, it is possible. For example, this little notebook on the featured photo above which has nothing to do about my secrets because that is my to-do list notebook for work. But since I am writing about secrets on this post, some of you probably though that one is my precious little diary for the new exciting year.

Remember when I told you my pregnancy stories? How I got my heart broken? How I landed to where I am now? There’s more to it, and I never published them here, on Facebook, on Instagram. I didn’t even tell any friend about them. There are still secrets not wanting to be heard, even from the most public person in the world.

I am writing because minutes ago, I was on the edge of a cliff where I just wanted to jump and tell everyone about my biggest secret. Well, it’s actually not mine, that’s why I have reservations on telling the story. But I was a part of it.

According to a study, people find themselves thinking about their secrets about three times more often than actively hiding it. There were times I thought I finally forgot about it, but at the end of each day, the horror still visits me.

I’ve been pushing myself to speak up ever since I got back into blogging. This page, as I probably already mentioned on my previous posts, was published because I wanted to speak my mind of what I feel, what I think, and what I wanted to release. And though I wanted people to hear my voice, I never thought I’d gain followers and readers this big. I mean, it’s still little, but you get what I mean. This blog wasn’t on hard-sell. I. Just. Wanted. To. Be. Heard. And yes, I was heard.

So yes, this blog and social media in general is a great platform for when you need to say something and get noticed by many. It’s just waiting for you to act on it and SHARE. But do I need to? Can I? If you think I am not thinking of the consequences my writing brings, then here I am directly speaking to you: I think literally ten times before I hit that publish button, and I don’t if I don’t feel ready yet.